what the hell

I feel off. way off.

Things aren't right, but there is nothing obvious to tell me its wrong.
What the hell am I doing with myself.

I started reading a couple books that I was really excited about...but then a few days into them, I got bored real bored. Why? no god not now!
I picked up Galapagos by Vonnegut and the premise is good. Survival of the fittest, narrator is a million years forward, reminiscing about the past... characters are told they will die off ahead of time... some interesting characters to start out with...then
Pooop fart... who the hell are all these new people, and why do the things that happen to them have no build up and depth to the situation... 200 pages in and NOTHING absolutely nothing.. let it go..just let it go

Then to compensate I picked up Nazi Literature in America, which is a fictional encyclopedia of 14 different authors, and the first few genealogies were interesting then it got boring too..like same format, same shit...why why why whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.This one I only got about 70 pages in and then I decided its time to let it go.

Now I'm reading Sedaris best shmeller book and its good and funny and too easy.

I'm telling you something is not right.

Unfinished Business:

Some titles I have read halfway, plus through and know I'll get back to them eventually..
(Yea, even though it was years ago...)
The Plague - Camus
Jungle - Sinclair
Herland - Gilman

Others... more like in the past month, I picked up and thought who cares or my brain should have this much smut (I am a fan of smut though):
The Book of Vices - Peter Sagal
Why? The first few chapters were actually good and interesting. Gambling boring, Pornography boring (all he says is that porn stars are actually good people...duh I could have figured that)
Faster -James Glieck
Why? After a few chapters... Type A and others were interesting, but mostly was a description of whatever time contraption and its evolution through history i.e: watch, fast food, work hours in a day. The best part of the book is "the end" and I think I could've just read the last chapter and been satisfied
Naked Lunch - Burroughs
Why? I am actually on the verge of putting this down. Well written yes, and overload of smut yes! Almost halfway through... I guess I'm a plot kind of person and knowing about various drugs and street behavior doesn't interest me anymore. I think I would have adored this book when I was in high school and experimenting.. but necrophilia, reading about withdrawals, etc. Its just like Junkie.. but harder to absorb. Figures, he was loaded when he wrote most of it...

I have a guiltiness inside when I put things down... gah whyyy