Saturday, March 28, 2009

End of Days


A great way to finish my break... I'm sad really I am.

Tallis starts off a bit intimidating (he is one smart dude), but the book becomes more interesting and enlightening further along. He starts of with the basics about the mind then goes about the senses, our thoughts, identity, and consciousness by incorporating a balance of science, philosophy, and references to literature. It was sometimes difficult to absorb, but also hard to put down. It definitely magnifies the subtleties of how the mind works and puts in perspective the mind's capabilities that we often take for granted.

So yea, its Saturday night and I miss my Pavel and being out in the cold air. I'm dreading school and feel terribly nervous about the next couple months. I often feel like my mind has regressed back, like I feel I have the tendencies of a kid in puberty: self-conscious, unsure, and unable to retain information. I know it had to be the major depression and anti-depressants a little over a year ago. Its difficult to communicate, socialize, and most of all speak in front of people... so the presentation I have to do in a couple weeks is making me nerve wrecked. I feel like i should have grown out of this.....

Monday, March 23, 2009


Man... I think back about how teachers assign books and they get a bad rep. One that comes to my mind that I hated was the red badge of courage. ouch.
This is one of those books that I luckily didn't get assigned, and its freaking good.
freak yeaa man.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Bliss


Written in the 1880's, I know much of the literary, religious, and art references are over my head. Most of it sounds like a commentary of a wealthy, intelligent culture snob who is engrossed in talking about his taste in everything, but its not obnoxious, just over consuming. The story is still good...des Esseintes the last of his bloodline, wealthy, well-educated in theology and Latin, but can't relate to anyone and thinks society is full of idiots moves to the outskirts of France to isolate himself in his books, art, and all human contact. Its hard to pinpoint the deal with him... sometimes he seems twisted, over the top, or too full of himself, but I think its something I'd appreciate the more I read it through. Finally something I didn't have stop reading midway.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Unfinished Business:

Some titles I have read halfway, plus through and know I'll get back to them eventually..
(Yea, even though it was years ago...)
The Plague - Camus
Jungle - Sinclair
Herland - Gilman

Others... more like in the past month, I picked up and thought who cares or my brain should have this much smut (I am a fan of smut though):
The Book of Vices - Peter Sagal
Why? The first few chapters were actually good and interesting. Gambling boring, Pornography boring (all he says is that porn stars are actually good people...duh I could have figured that)
Faster -James Glieck
Why? After a few chapters... Type A and others were interesting, but mostly was a description of whatever time contraption and its evolution through history i.e: watch, fast food, work hours in a day. The best part of the book is "the end" and I think I could've just read the last chapter and been satisfied
Naked Lunch - Burroughs
Why? I am actually on the verge of putting this down. Well written yes, and overload of smut yes! Almost halfway through... I guess I'm a plot kind of person and knowing about various drugs and street behavior doesn't interest me anymore. I think I would have adored this book when I was in high school and experimenting.. but necrophilia, reading about withdrawals, etc. Its just like Junkie.. but harder to absorb. Figures, he was loaded when he wrote most of it...

I have a guiltiness inside when I put things down... gah whyyy

Tuesday, March 3, 2009





Whats up with the lack o' Harry Callahan on the web. A photobook of his came in the campbell store. I want it. $50 divided by employee discount% = ? still no.


Merriweather Post Pavilion - Animal Coll
Sucks Blood -Ohsees
There's No Home - Jana Hunter
Seven Guitars with a Cloud of Milk- Gable
Robert Johnson Complete Recordings
Expensive Shit & Roforofo Fight - FelaKuti

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