Thursday, March 25, 2010

its' ez

I have a terrible habit of getting distracted and reading halfway through a book, then abandoning it for something else (Okay with the intention of returning to it.. abandon is such a harsh word). It's not that whatever I am reading is such a boring book, but I am an impulsive person. I am! I go with what I feel with a lot of things in my life, which leads to a lot unfinished business, but a lot of nice surprises. One would think that I also have regret from being impulsive, but I've learned that I become more embarrassed than regretful, and that's okay.. and maybe explains why I am an awkward being...



So I'm single damnit and being a late twenty something, I started/am becoming anxious about it. I'm in a new city and friends aren't around as often. I am used to being with someone and having attention... I'm narcissistic ... I am not trying to justify reading this book in the span of a night alone in the creepy neighborhood bar over well whisky sodas, then over my cataloging lecture in the morning. I loved it.. it's exactly what I needed and it makes me realize I'm not a f-ing lunatic girl with unrationalized emotions.

I like her cause she's gutless, honest, and even though I'm not promiscuous...it's good to hear that the guys she's been with have sucked like the ones I have dated (well Pavel was okay), and she reveals a lot of truth to the situation. I also appreciated her late twenty going onto thirty spiel at the end. The twenties do suck.... and when you're thirty you can just say "NO".

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